Its been more than a year since the last time I post a blog in here. And for that more than a year, a lot of things happened which I thought blogging as the least in my list. First, I got so busy with my work that I felt blogging will just add to my busy schedule. Second, my busy schedule just got me lazy to even think of what to post. And lastly, my lost pregnancy mid last year discouraged me a lot that I no longer find reason to blog. But as we all know, God has a reason for allowing things to happen. We may not understand His wisdom but we just have to trust His holy will.
My first pregnancy felt like a dream come true, at least for a while. We learned I was pregnant one day then few days later the baby was gone. I can still remember how I cried out on my hospital bed as I wait for my doctor to perform D&C. I cannot understand why it has to happen that way. We waited for a long time for that baby. But sometimes you really just don’t need to understand everything. You just have to trust. Amidst my mourning I believed and trusted that God has a better plan. I know that one day He will finally grant our prayers of having a baby. we just have to be more patient. And so it happened!
Yes I got pregnant months after the miscarriage! And the good news came the very unexpected way. I was in a province that time doing an audit when I saw that long awaited two red lines. I was in a mixed emotions – happy and excited yet scared and worried. I am in a travel and God knows I can no longer bear another loss in case something bad happens. But God works in mysterious ways and nothing is impossible to Him!
And now I am in the longest week of my life – waiting for our beloved baby to finally come out! Every now and then we talk to him and tell him how excited we are to see and hold him in our arms – how we love him so much. And as I am waiting for the final moment, I asked myself, “what is the best way to tell my little one how I cherished every single moment with him since day 1?” And so I decided to continue this blog!
First and foremost, I want to document my journey of motherhood. I want for my son to see and read one day how is he growing up and how much we treasure every moment with him. This will serve as my mommy diary where he can read over and over again. I know one day, he will appreciate this and know that he is a special gift to us from God.
And lastly, I want to share my motherhood experiences and inspire others. I know that I will not be the most perfect mother in the world. I will not be expert on anything, in fact I know a have so much more to learn especially in this thing called motherhood. But I want that somehow, in my little experiences – may it be success or failures – as I journey the world of motherhood, I may share and inspire others especially those moms who are also new in this journey. I hope that even in this simple way, I can inspire other moms or moms-to-be and at the same time, learn from my own mistakes and from their experiences too.
So there, welcome again to this blog and join me as I explore the best adventure of my lifetime!